What do 你 think of my poem?
Standing in self-hatred,
drowning in my tears,
looking back on my life,
what I've been through the past 18 years.
Living in my sister's shadow,
everything I do and say,
wishing somehow things would change,
prayong for a way out.
Same old shit just another day,
living this evil life that was created just for me.
Starving for love, affection, and attention,
I know none of this os how it's really supposed to be.
I try to be strong,
even though I feel so weak,
feel like just giving up,
but I can't accept defeat.
Pretending like I'm always happy,
although I'm never really okay.
Waiting for the end,
the pain I feel everyday.
It's hard to say what's wrong,
when nothing goes right.
Hard to keep myself going,
when I've been blinded 由 darkness.
This pain is never ending,
it just goes on and on and on.
It's all so unbelivably real,
I just wish it all was gone.
Trying to pick myself up,
when I've fallen so far and hard.
But I don't know where I'm going,
it's all so very dark.
My 心 is weak, my emotions sore,
I do my best to never let it show.
But deep down inside I feel like I'm dying,
and nobody knows.
A lot of fucked up thoughts,
run through my head constantly.
I just wish I didn't live,
this life is misery!