Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living 由 the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my 苦 existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living 由 the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my 苦 existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
if the 爱情 of your life died,
what would 你 do if they died a terrible death,
would 你 get revenge,
would 你 hate everyone,
would 你 become a murderer in return,
would 你 cry your life away,
或者 would 你 take your life away?
What would 你 do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would 你 do if they died terribly,
would 你 laugh because no tears will come,
would 你 cry until it is all over,
would 你 do the same,
would 你 run away,
或者 would 你 just throw it all away?
What would 你 do,
if 你 were hit 由 a car,
what would 你 do if 你 were dying,
would 你 feel sorry for yourself,
would 你 cry until the end,
would 你 remember everything 你 have ever done,
would 你 call your mom,
或者 would 你 hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would 你 do,
when everything ends for 你 或者 a friend?
What would 你 do?
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My 心 is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen 由 the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am 迷失 in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to 吞, 燕子 me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My 心 is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen 由 the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am 迷失 in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to 吞, 燕子 me forever
There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if 心 is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with 爱情 that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if 心 is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with 爱情 that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
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Only knew 你 for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
你 always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
你 always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
你 just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew 你 would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
你 and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
你 ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never 说 goodbye
I wish i could of 说 goodbye
For 你 are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss 你 and 你 will never be forgotten
____________________________________________________
Only knew 你 for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
你 always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
你 always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
你 just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew 你 would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
你 and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
你 ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never 说 goodbye
I wish i could of 说 goodbye
For 你 are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss 你 and 你 will never be forgotten
When I talk to my 老友记 I pretend I am standing on the wings
of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
或者 if I am falling to earth weighing less
than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up
with their 爱人 and are carrying 食物 to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices
like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle
passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.
I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away
from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.
—Jason Shinder
of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
或者 if I am falling to earth weighing less
than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up
with their 爱人 and are carrying 食物 to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices
like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle
passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.
I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away
from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.
—Jason Shinder
I am mysterious yet sweet
I wonder what the future brings
I hear 狼 唱歌 to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely
I am 随意 yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do
I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making 更多 老友记 along the way.
I am all that I am, I am all of me
I wonder what the future brings
I hear 狼 唱歌 to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely
I am 随意 yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do
I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making 更多 老友记 along the way.
I am all that I am, I am all of me