“I’ve loved 你 from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. 你 know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic 婊子, 子 to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because 你 were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed 你 away. I made 你 think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite 你 for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can 你 understand?
你 were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I 爱情 you. I 爱情 你 so much it’s killing me”