Ever, since I 迷失 Michael it has been so, hard for me. I kinda drop my grades in school a little bit, I cry at school and have to go to the Consular for a while. I take my anger on other people, of when I think of him. Also, I also scream at my poster's of Michael, and I say harsh things like, I hate 你 why did 你 did this too 你 could have been stronger, I don't want to hear from 你 again. Then sometimes, I just sob until, I go to sleep and other times, I don't eat at all. I also notice something, I don't smile anymore, unless some one cheered me up. Why, did he have to go? In, my head it's like an desert. My best friend was like, same with me. My good friend was like, your over exaggerating. I'm like, 你 don't know what's it like to not have an person, that is sooo important, that died. She was like, yes I do. I was like, it seems like your having a good time without that person. Also, one of my friends, like when I talk about Michael, she'll be like Shut up, nobody likes him, I don't even want 2 be here friend any more. Than I keep, hearing that Will Smith is dead. If he is, that hurts, cause he's one of my last hopes, since Michael died. I have a lot going on in my life, some times I'm ready to die, I'm not gonna lie, but I kinda like life, it's okay. So What about You?