你 walk into the club, standing at the 最佳, 返回页首 of the spiral staircase, watching her give instructions to the few other employees that occupy the floor. 你 reach up and touch the 心 项链 she gave you, unsure of what you’re about to do. Your 心 hurts just thinking about it, but it’s the right thing to do, isn’t it? No one is going to accept 你 two and 你 can’t take the stress of being rejected 由 everyone 你 know and love. 你 slowly make your way down the stairs, steadying yourself on the handrail. 你 stop at the bar, waiting for her to turn around.
“Hey you,” she says, smiling and coming over for a kiss. 你 移动 away and 吻乐队(Kiss) her cheek, knowing 你 won’t be able to go through with this if 你 let her 吻乐队(Kiss) you.
“Alex, can I talk to you,” 你 ask, your voice shaky. 你 won’t allow yourself to look into her sparkling eyes. She doesn’t speak, but she wraps her arm around your waist and guides 你 in to her office. 你 sit on the 长椅, 沙发 and stare at the tiles on the floor, nervous about the pending conversation.
“What do 你 want to talk about,” she inquires, leaning against her desk. 你 inadvertently let your eyes wander up the curves of her long legs, to her hips, and up to her torso where 你 stare at her beautifully toned stomach, resisting the urge to walk over and places kisses on every inch of her exposed skin.
Your voice cracks as 你 speak. “I...I can’t do this,” 你 say, tears already starting to well up in your eyes.
“Can’t do what, Marissa,” she says, her voice a mix of anger and sadness.
“Us,” 你 state plainly. “We have to go back to being friends," 你 finish, standing up. Your voice seems sure, but if she looked at 你 right now, she’d know 你 were lying. 你 hear her sigh as she walks towards you, and she places her hands on your hips. Tilting your chin up and looking into your eyes, she begins to speak.
“I can’t go back to being friends, Marissa. This…us…this is living,” she starts, obviously near tears.
“And friends...that's waiting and I won't go back. I can’t go back. 你 know 你 don’t want this. Without you, I have nothing, Marissa,” she says, her voice pleading 你 to stay. “Please, baby, we can work on this. 你 can do this...we’ll take it slow...no 更多 sex...whatever 你 want. Just please...don’t leave me,” she says, the pleading becoming 更多 urgent. 你 make the mistake of looking in her eyes and 你 see the tears forming there. 你 can’t break down now.
"Look Alex,” 你 stay, stepping away from her and looking at the ground. “You know I’m straight. 你 and I...we...we'd just be better at friends,” 你 stammer, trying to convince yourself 更多 than her. 你 look in her eyes one 更多 time and see that she’s already set up the walls around her heart. 你 wish 你 could do the same, but no walls in the world could block the pain 你 feel from the words she says next.
"Well 下一个 time 你 wanna experiment, go fuck another girl and make her fall in 爱情 with you, but don't come back to me.”
你 stand there in a state of shock, her words echoing in your mind. ‘She’s in 爱情 with me,’ 你 think as 你 open your mouth to speak. “Al...” 你 start, but she cuts 你 off before 你 can even finish her name.
“Just go,” she says angrily, motioning towards the door. 你 turn away from her, unable to let her see 你 cry. The tears fall freely as 你 run out of her office and up the stairs to your car. 你 climb in and slam the door, not noticing the person sitting 下一个 to 你 as the steady tears turn into loud sobs.
“Hey you,” she says, smiling and coming over for a kiss. 你 移动 away and 吻乐队(Kiss) her cheek, knowing 你 won’t be able to go through with this if 你 let her 吻乐队(Kiss) you.
“Alex, can I talk to you,” 你 ask, your voice shaky. 你 won’t allow yourself to look into her sparkling eyes. She doesn’t speak, but she wraps her arm around your waist and guides 你 in to her office. 你 sit on the 长椅, 沙发 and stare at the tiles on the floor, nervous about the pending conversation.
“What do 你 want to talk about,” she inquires, leaning against her desk. 你 inadvertently let your eyes wander up the curves of her long legs, to her hips, and up to her torso where 你 stare at her beautifully toned stomach, resisting the urge to walk over and places kisses on every inch of her exposed skin.
Your voice cracks as 你 speak. “I...I can’t do this,” 你 say, tears already starting to well up in your eyes.
“Can’t do what, Marissa,” she says, her voice a mix of anger and sadness.
“Us,” 你 state plainly. “We have to go back to being friends," 你 finish, standing up. Your voice seems sure, but if she looked at 你 right now, she’d know 你 were lying. 你 hear her sigh as she walks towards you, and she places her hands on your hips. Tilting your chin up and looking into your eyes, she begins to speak.
“I can’t go back to being friends, Marissa. This…us…this is living,” she starts, obviously near tears.
“And friends...that's waiting and I won't go back. I can’t go back. 你 know 你 don’t want this. Without you, I have nothing, Marissa,” she says, her voice pleading 你 to stay. “Please, baby, we can work on this. 你 can do this...we’ll take it slow...no 更多 sex...whatever 你 want. Just please...don’t leave me,” she says, the pleading becoming 更多 urgent. 你 make the mistake of looking in her eyes and 你 see the tears forming there. 你 can’t break down now.
"Look Alex,” 你 stay, stepping away from her and looking at the ground. “You know I’m straight. 你 and I...we...we'd just be better at friends,” 你 stammer, trying to convince yourself 更多 than her. 你 look in her eyes one 更多 time and see that she’s already set up the walls around her heart. 你 wish 你 could do the same, but no walls in the world could block the pain 你 feel from the words she says next.
"Well 下一个 time 你 wanna experiment, go fuck another girl and make her fall in 爱情 with you, but don't come back to me.”
你 stand there in a state of shock, her words echoing in your mind. ‘She’s in 爱情 with me,’ 你 think as 你 open your mouth to speak. “Al...” 你 start, but she cuts 你 off before 你 can even finish her name.
“Just go,” she says angrily, motioning towards the door. 你 turn away from her, unable to let her see 你 cry. The tears fall freely as 你 run out of her office and up the stairs to your car. 你 climb in and slam the door, not noticing the person sitting 下一个 to 你 as the steady tears turn into loud sobs.