I wanna run but I cannot chase the sun I'm hiding from the light because it is so bright I don't wanna fight because i'm filled with fright look there is the spirites they come only in the night 你 wouldn't find me in the 日 of light morning when I'm out of your sight trying to escape the night the stars are so bright 你 call to me and I'm full of fright I carefully look to the sky but then I look all around and see nobody is to be found I run from the sun I run from 你 你 are not who i had thought I knew I can't I can't be blue as long as I'm far away from 你 Is this true what 你 are feeling that you're no longer peeling far far away where 你 can't find me it is my time to fly and now I will say GOODBYE.

Tell me why I've been lied to
Tell me why there are secrets hidden from me
由 my sister

Explain to me why she choose this
Explain to me why I hurt so much
Explain to me why I don't care any more
About my life

Answer me why I want to cry
Answer me why I want to die
Answer me why I want her to just
Leave already
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I've been hurt 由 a sister. She has lied openly to my face, hidden secrets from me when she promised me she wouldn't, and threw me out like I was trash. I'm wrong for being hurt, 或者 am I just an idiot?

Go to sleep and close your eyes

And dream of broken butterflies

That tore their wings against a thorn

你 know the pain that which they’ve born

Silver metal shine so bright

Scarlet blood that feels so right

Dream of that blood trickling down

And wake up just before 你 drown

The moonlight shining off your tears

As 你 bleed out your worst fears

So tonight when 你 start to cry

Whisper the cutters lullaby:

Hushabye baby, your almost dead

你 don’t have a pulse and your pillows red

Your family hates you, and your 老友记 let 你 bleed

Sleep tight with a knife, cause thats all 你 need

Rockabye baby, broken and scarred

你 didn’t know life would be this hard

Time to end the pain 你 hid so well

And down 你 go baby

Straight back to hell

hope, for me, is a place uncharted
and extreamly over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
《冰雪奇缘》 my very soul.

my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forwarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.

the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my 心 is numb.

and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my 心 can not ache,
nor can it brake.

the lie of a life
i'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explination.
so i ask, Why?

why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?

so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope 你 understand...

I draw a pretty picture A picture on my wrist The picture keeps getting bigger Every time my feelings are dismissed 你 think the words don’t hurt me That the actions don’t cause me pain 你 think that if I smile I must be happy again I’m not going to blame it on 你 Because I know that its my choice But it only ever happens when 你 raise your voice I hear the screams and shouts And I reach out for the blade I do it without thinking Then I look at the mess I’ve made It looks ugly and it stings But it takes away the pain And the hurt Of all the other things I know you’ll tell me its wrong If 你 ever find out That’s why I keep my arms covered I don’t want 你 to scream and shout I keep my arms covered so no one else can see The scratches ive made on my arms There something that’s private to me.

Life is often like a fire, it dies out, and it does not last forever,
while some people hide behind smiles and joy, others embrace the fear, the fear that everyone drowns in, for fear is the one thing we can be sheltered by.
So as I 说 before, life is like a fire, it burns out, because it will not last, just like everything else in this world, the only remains left behind are the burning ashes.
Its hard to say whether 或者 but change will come to our lives on this earth, but if it does, it surly will not be in this lifetime.

Restless
© Gina
I wake up everyday,
mainly to my dismay,
the pain it caused will never end,
I never had the strength to tell a friend,
how do 你 open up,
when your whole life 你 kept it shut up,
how do 你 get the pain to subside,
when all 你 want to do is curl up and hide,
this whole thing is my fault,
I couldn't tell my mother I was his default,
even when I escaped the crime,
I knew I would never regain the time.



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