Do 你 sometimes envy those who have even an inch of a better life?

I do, sometimes. Other times I just pick myself up and keep walking, it's not worth it most the time but alot of people (Mostly EX friends) gossip about my life there talking about there own, looking for attention so they use me as the subject. I hate it, I literally DARE people to talk 或者 even ask me about my life I could either snap 或者 breakdown that easy that no matter what, they would regret it. I don't like talking about my life and I'm sure alot of you's don't like it either so I was just wondering if 你 have the slightest bit of envy when someone says something ' good 'about their lives? Sounds hard to understand but I can't word it any better, sorry.