Dear Diary...
Do I 爱情 him ? Does He 爱情 me ? Is that alright ? Isnt that wrong? So many 问题 becuse of one guy. Why, why me? Even though I broke up with Light and I dont have any feelings for l (till now),why does my 心 hurt when I see him, why does it hurt when I see L?? Do I have feelings for him, and if does he have feelings for me??
It was Saturday, my work has ended and the police crew was home. I (idiot) forgot my wallet, so I musted go back and take it. When I came to the police room, it was all dark (maybe becuse it was 10 pm in the night), except the TVs that someone was watching. That was l siting in the chair like usual.

"Hey" I 说 "What are 你 doing this late." He turned to my side, and watched me with his big black eyes.
"Hey,I was watching some TV, but what are 你 donig here?"
"I have forgoten my Wallet,did 你 see it?" I asked
"Yeah" He came really close to me and watched down on me.
"What are 你 donig ?"
"Nothing special and you?"
"Dont joke with me L,Im not that stupid, WHAT ARE YOU..."
But before I even finished my sentences, he kissed me and then licked his lips.It was not a hard kiss, but a nice, cute, "I like 更多 then a friend kiss".
It was the perfect first kiss!!
"W-wh-what are 你 doing ?" I asked schoked.
"I kissed you" He answered sweet.
"But why?"
"Becuse I 爱情 you!"
He l-lo-love me, me, the smartest guy in the world loves me!!
"But..." I was schoked.
"I know it sounds wierd,becuse i never felt this way, becuse I was never loved, but when Im with 你 my 心 hurts.Its like a dre...
Before he finished I started to cry,not becuse I was sad, but because I was happy,so happy.
"Why are 你 crying" He asked me worried.
"Becuse Im happy,more then in my whole life" I 说 that while I was crying.
"Does that mean 你 like me too ?" He asked, while he was coming closer and closer to me.
"NO, I dont like you,you idiot" I smiled.
"Ohh.." He looked at me sad.
"I 爱情 you.I always did,but I was scared,becuse I tought that 你 dont like me and..."
He stoped me with his kiss. This 吻乐队（Kiss） was different then the first,this was intensive, hotter. He didnt wanted to stop, even if tried he didnt let me go. I dont know how but managed to stop him for a minute, so i could ask him:
"L, why is this 吻乐队（Kiss） different then the first one?"
He gave me a little 吻乐队（Kiss） and said, "Becuse in the 1st one I havent been sure that 你 like me that much as i like you, but now that im sure of it I wont let 你 go, never!!"
That was the moment that should never stop, I loved him so much and he loved me too.
He pulled me to his body and kissed me with his tongue so hard it almost hurted. He raised me, taked me to his room and put me down on his bed.
Even if i loved him I want sure if that would be alright to do that at the same night, but as we were 接吻 更多 and 更多 i wanted to do it 更多 than he.
"Misa ?"
"What is it l ?"
"Do 你 really want to ?"
"Y-yes if its with you, I do. I 爱情 you!!"
"I 爱情 你 too,Misa!"
He started to undress his white shirt,when I saw his muscles I blushed so much, I was so red it looked like I had fever.
"Your so cute when 你 blush" He 说 smileing.
"Idiot..." I said. "Dont joke with me !"
"That isnt a very nice sort of talking, becuse of that 你 must be punished ."
"W-what are 你 talki..."
He remove my 衬衫 and kissed me on the forehead, then on the nose, then lips, neck...
"Pervert ." I said.
He smiled and removed my shoes, becuse he didnt have any shose 或者 socks.
He get up from the bed, while i was lieing helpless on the bed, I dont know what was he thinking, but he was smileing pervert and cute in one.
I cant stop thinking of that night,but dear diary i should stop talking and go on!!!
He climbed on the 床, 床上 and started to 吻乐队（Kiss） me again and again.
"Lawliet, why can 你 吻乐队（Kiss） so good, didnt 你 say 你 didnt had a girlfriend till now ?"
"Thats false. That 吻乐队（Kiss） with 你 wasnt my first, but it was your right ?"
"How do 你 know that ?"
"Becuse I know that Light never 吻乐队（Kiss） 你 and that he dont 爱情 you, but I do ." he whispered in my ear "I 爱情 你 so much i would kill for 你 ."
I blushed even 更多 than before so I kissed him, and then happend the cutest thnik in this world, l BLUSHED, and becuse he doesnt wanted me to see it so kissed me so hard that i musted close my eyes, but i wanted to see his cute face so I pushed him down on the bed.
"What are 你 doing ?" l asked all red.
"I want to see your blushing face, its cuter then my..."
In that moment l pushed me down and kissed me.
"No, no im not your the cutest girl ever."
And with this sentence we were 接吻 and 接吻 and gone 更多 far then just kissing. <3 <3 <3