Ari & Rachel ♥ Article: ☾happy anniversary, my moon☽

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posted by fairfarren

what i felt when i first met you

'sup girl. i don't even know how to start this 或者 what to say but i'm a writer so imma wing it. there's like a galaxy worth of stuff i could say but then again it's like i can only grasp a constellation worth when i'm grasping. it's strange, sitting down and pouring out your 心 and soul. it makes 你 vulnerable and open to the world in a weird way, but 你 know everything about me anyway so it's not like it matters. anyway. so. when we met. hmm. that nostalgia man. i've already told 你 like a million times how i sat in my laundry room trying to get wifi to talk to you. it's a special memory for me, how there was always something in me that reached out to 你 even though 你 were no 更多 than a stranger to me, no 更多 than a passing wanderer in life. and yet, something drew me to you, something i still can't pinpoint even to this day. but as we talked, we got closer and i tried to treasure every second. there have been times where i have been a horrible person, a horrible friend and i have mistreated 你 and taken advantage of you. and there have been some horrible falling outs between us, in which i do not look upon often, but when i do, it's with a sorrowful countenance (excuse your resident literature buff lmao). but the point is, 你 have always accepted me. accepted all sides of me. without question. and i appreciate that 更多 than 你 know. that kind of loyalty and understanding cannot be earned 或者 gained 或者 bought. somehow i was lucky enough to meet you, to meet such a kind, honest person. and i have tried to accept each side of 你 as well and i hope i have done a good job. if i achieve nothing else in life, i will have wanted to be a good friend. if, before 你 die, i am that to 你 then my life will have been worth living.
i 爱情 you. i 爱情 the angry rachel, the passionate rachel, the procrastinating rachel, the sweet rachel, the clingy rachel, the hilarious rachel, the deep rachel, the sad rachel. i 爱情 them all. 由 now you're probably tired of 阅读 your name haha sorry. but i just want 你 to know that. i 爱情 the sides i can't fathom, the sides i've forgotten, the sides i've not mentioned. i even 爱情 the sides that irritate me, that annoy me. i even 爱情 the sides i hate. don't ask me how 或者 why but i just do. and i always will. if 你 ever need me for anything, i am 由 your side. 你 are eternally stuck with me. thank 你 for blessing me with your life, your presence, your soul. thank 你 for giving me this connection i can never replace, return, 或者 trade.
we've been together four years. for years. that's crazy. years. touching someone's life so much they want to talk to 你 everyday, they're interested in every aspect of your life, they are your best friend. it feels like a century. it feels like a moment. i wouldn't have believed someone if they told me i would be this close to you, that 你 would mean this much to me. but now i can't imagine a world without you. fate 或者 god 或者 whatever, they were fucking smart to pull us together. we need each other. we build each other up when we're torn down. we wouldn't be here without each other. it's so weird to look upon. as an outsider, i don't think i could understand our friendship. it is a singular one. it is one in a hundred million. it's special. it's special to me, it's special in general. damn. how. i 爱情 our crazy (THREE HOUR?!?!) conversations, how we can go from 迪士尼 princesses to the crevices of our soul, how we can tell each other everything, how we can talk about everything. not everyone can do that. not everyone can have that. i am so fucking lucky, i swear to god. thank you.
i 爱情 you. those three words are so simple and yet hold so much. 你 are everything to me. i 爱情 you, my moon. and i will always be your sun.

"what do 你 see, when 你 look at me?
don't cover my scars, let them bleed
tell me, is this how it's supposed to be?
well then, i'm so, i'm so happy.
we don't need rehab."

lmao i got one 金牌 for this aMaZiNg article? i do 爱情 you, 锄, 锄头 :p