Im in deep depression...please help...

I was bullied from when I was 6 to around 17 years old so I know how 你 must feel but thinking about it all over again is one of the worst things 你 can do regarding this.

It looks like you're holding on to it way too tight and my 建议 is 你 must try to let the past go because there is nothing 你 can do to change it though I completely understand if it only ended short time ago.

My other 建议 is to go out and try to meddle with people again even though it is extremely tough. I admit I have a hard time doing it too after being bullied for so many years but if 你 don't do it, you'll never get over your fear of being bullied again.

你 know I'm a victim too (except I had 老友记 when I was a kid) & I suffer from mild depression about other issues in my life. Now I recently watched a video in one of my classes @ school about teen depression & encouraging victims of it to get help. I would strongly recommend 你 do, but if your anything like me who doesn't want my parents to find out 或者 be caught going to the school counselor's office & be judged 由 others for it, tell your best friend 或者 another close person 你 trust (I talk to someone who struggles a lot as well) because even though they may not be perfect 或者 don't know how to help, sometimes it even just helps to get it off your chest. It's good to walk through these storms of life with someone, it just makes 你 feel a whole lot better & in your case, just let/accept people encourage 你 so that the damage can be undone.
P.S. 你 are the most amazing, beautiful, friendliest & decent person I know on the planet (& I'm not joking!!)