OMG!!! i feel soooo stupid!!!! plzplzplz help!!!! thnx!

ok i like my cousins betfriend and his name is austin well....sometimes i feel like i really need a boyfriend....weeelllll thenn sometimes i feel like i kan live wothout one...well the problem is austin knws i like him he likes me(i thnk he does but he finishd me with a kiss...now tell me he dnt like me..hehe) well like i 说 sometime i feel like i need a bf and sometimes i dnt.....i thnk itz cuzof our distance...he lives in anuthr state i live in texas...and umm i gess itz cuz evry othr guy has cheated so tell me what shud i do....