***Randy's POV***

Randy sees 你 go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The 图片 of 你 crying your 心 out, shouting that 你 wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce 你 husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's 老友记 were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor 说 it was ok. He sees 你 sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits 下一个 to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for 你 由 breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair 下一个 to your bed. 你 look around and 你 realize your in a hospital. 你 can't remember anything that happened to 你 before except the dizziness 你 felt back at Randy's house. 你 smile...

I 爱情 you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that 你 are my one and only last love.

The whole day, 你 and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. 你 guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and 你 hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's 你 again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your 床, 床上 and gets under your covers. 你 follow right after and 你 吻乐队（Kiss） him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and 你 guys all go back to school...

Shawn: 嘿 Taylor. 你 think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. 你 should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: 你 should let go of Jamie. I mean 你 haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know 你 like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my 爱情 really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this 爱情 to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives 你 a dirty look. 你 get a bad feeling and she pushes 你 and says:

Lauren: Are 你 a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First 你 like him, then 你 break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are 你 trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. 你 说 你 were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, 你 wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. 你 twitch and 你 quickly yet gently 移动 Randy's hands off your waist. 你 leave the 长椅, 沙发 and 你 run to the bathroom and 你 head to the toilet. 你 just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, 你 look and 你 see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your 床, 床上 and 你 plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. 你 look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give 你 what 你 deserve.

Brad is about to 冲床 Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: 嘿 嘿 hey!! What the hell is wrong with 你 Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE 你 try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though 你 might never be 由 my side again, I will never forget you. 你 won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come 由 me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt 由 你 again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? 你 always cared for them 更多 than 你 did for me 或者 for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least 你 could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and 你 sit in the back 座位 of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like 你 Jamie. Not just as a friend but 更多 than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, 你 just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want 你 to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want 你 to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want 你 to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. 你 hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't 你 understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, 或者 can it be me in the 下一个 life time? Even if 你 promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway 下一个 to Shawn's car and 你 see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees 你 and Randy and 你 get out of the car with Randy. 你 quickly get Angie and 你 walk 下一个 to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to 你 and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole 月 passed 由 and 你 and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. 你 and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and 你 spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, 或者 hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do 你 wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days 你 going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so 你 won't be bored....

As time goes 由 you'll be able to forget everything...

You've been getting closer with the group while getting farther from Shawn. 你 don't even bother hanging out with him when 你 see him around school. 你 just walk with Randy and the rest of the group (you and Randy have every single class together and 6th period too). 你 and Randy have been getting pretty close and 你 guys can crack jokes to each other now. In 6th period, 你 go to your coach and 你 give him the note from the doctor. 你 look at the coach's expression while 阅读 it and he looks like 0,0...

Coach: Sullivan...
Jamie:...